May be it is during my retired period I feel it so dear that any small separation from them hurt me seriously. Sometimes other members are busy and the engagements of day to day life make them away from me, which disturbs me with the feeling of avidness. I occasionally feel that all the matters are not discussed with me and they try to avoid me, irrespective of my hard work to earn through out my life to earn for their happiness. These I know is lead by selfish feelings, but irritate me occasionally. During my service days, I was away from family and even could not attend many of the important family functions. I feel now whether the guilty consciousness is making me attach deeply with the family members even very sensitively. The inter relationship of each member I watch very carefully to observe that each and every member is keeping the relation with due respect and intimacy. This eagerness sometimes causes friction in my feelings as if everything is in my control.